Let’s be real- many of us want to act differently from our family members.
Growing up, you may have sworn that you’d never act like your parents or grandparents. And even today, you might look at the various choices your relatives make with confusion and disappointment.
And yet, generational patterns have an insidious way of repeating themselves time and time again. Without insight and conscious effort, it’s so easy to slip into automatic patterns.
Cycle breakers bravely decide to stand up against harmful generational patterns. They see how their family operates, but they decide to pursue their values and needs- even if it creates a negative response from family members. Anyone can become a cycle breaker, and it tends to be common among scapegoated individuals.
That said, being a cycle breaker is hard. But failing to disrupt a toxic status quo can be even harder. Here’s how you can make the necessary changes.
Why Is Breaking the Cycle So Challenging?
It doesn’t seem fair. If we experienced suffering in the past, why do we continue acting in ways that bother us? If we know certain behaviors harmed us as children, why do we pass them on to our partners or kids?
If you want to be a cycle breaker, you should first consider why you haven’t broken the cycle yet. Here are some common factors that often keep people feeling stuck.
We tend to do what we’re familiar with doing. It may sound simple but think about the unconscious decisions you make every single day.
Do you, for example, buy a certain cereal brand because your mother always served it to you? Do you drive a specific car because your father always praised that car company? Do you, like many people, follow the same religious or political beliefs as your parents?
Change- in any form- can be scary, and sometimes it feels easier to simply accept things for what they are rather than explore them further. That’s why making a break often feels so distressing. You must now reexamine what felt so automatic.
Being a cycle breaker inherently requires a sense of autonomy. But many people stuck in unhealthy cycles have enmeshed boundaries with their families. They don’t have a solid sense of separation from them (even if they’re physically distant from one another).
Some signs of poor boundaries in family systems include:
- feeling like you need to take care of other people’s emotions
- frequently lying to avoid strong reactions
- allowing other people to manage your daily responsibilities
- feeling unable to make decisions without approval or validation
- consistent privacy violations
- ongoing unsolicited advice about how you’re living your life
- feeling enabled for unhealthy or problematic behaviors
- people oversharing very personal details with one another
- awkward or inappropriate physical contact
- rigid, universal beliefs about how people should act
Many times, people justify these potentially codependent actions by insisting that they’re behaving this way out of love. They might even double down and call you ungrateful or selfish for questioning their decisions.
Guilt often stems from poor boundaries. Even if you want to break the cycle, you may worry about hurting your loved ones. You also probably don’t want to upset your parents or be “that” person who makes things difficult.
And so, you might continue to push your feelings and pain aside. You might even tell yourself that you’re just overreacting or being too emotional. As a result, the guilt festers and often keeps you from making necessary changes in your life.
Furthermore, your family shapes your earliest memories, beliefs, and behaviors. From the moment you enter this world, you are a product of their specific system. That generational loyalty can run deep, especially if you still feel indebted to your family.
Poor Outcomes for Cycle Breakers
Some families are clear in expressing that they won’t tolerate cycle breakers. This may be especially true in homophobic, racist, or other discriminatory systems.
Maybe you observed someone else get banished for cycle-breaking. Perhaps you saw how your family treated people for thinking differently than them. If that’s the case, it’s no wonder that you hesitate to make a move. You don’t want to become the next scapegoat!
What Does Cycle Breaking Actually Look Like?
Cycle breaking starts with awareness. You start looking at your inner world a bit differently. You begin labeling toxic behavior or actual instances of abuse. You consider your future and identify how you want it to look different.
Making space for this reflection can be challenging. At first, it’s normal to feel a sense of shame in questioning your family system. You may worry you’re being disloyal or ungrateful. You might assume you’re being too hard on people for making mistakes.
But cycle breakers play such a powerful role in their healing. You can’t change the past, but staying stunted in that pain will only keep you feeling stuck. Cycle breaking allows you to validate your emotions and move towards a stage of growth.
Changing How You Cope
The bulk of cycle breaking consists of changing unwanted behaviors. These behaviors can range from feeling mildly disturbing to downright life-threatening.
For example, maybe you drink too much when you’re sad because that’s what you observed your mother doing when you were growing up. Perhaps you shout at people when you feel angry because everyone became loud in your childhood home. Maybe you see yourself treating your children in ways that make you feel ashamed or guilty.
Of course, changing patterns takes time. You didn’t develop these behaviors overnight, so it takes dedication, effort, and consistency to implement healthier alternatives.
But a true cycle breaker welcomes this novel way of living- even if it feels scary. They know what they are doing isn’t effective, and they’re ready to try something new.
Identifying Your Values
Maybe you think you know who you are, but do you really? Have you coasted through life without truly thinking about what makes you so unique?
Cycle breaking often means exploring your core values. What’s non-negotiable to you? What makes you experience awe? If you could do anything in this life, what would it be?
Discovering and becoming aware of your values may seem uncomfortable at first. You may feel a sense of responsibility to maintain the family image, and that pressure can cause some internal conflict. Are you allowed to have a separate identity or distinct set of interests? Is it okay to develop or embrace a path that doesn’t match what your family envisioned for you?
As you ask yourself these questions, you may feel embarrassed. After all, you logically know that you’re an adult and that you have the power to take ownership of your life! But as you can see, certain patterns and beliefs have a way of making us doubt ourselves. It’s easy to hold onto this covert complex that ‘family knows best.’
Sometimes being a cycle breaker means being a parent to yourself. If you didn’t have certain needs met during childhood, you may act in harmful ways to meet those needs now.
Reparenting yourself might look like this:
- becoming acquainted with your inner child
- acknowledging how you felt when you were younger
- recognizing that you can validate your needs now
- committing to allowing yourself to heal and thrive
Redefining Your Support System
Who makes you feel loved, connected, and unconditionally accepted? Maybe it’s your family- but if you’re a genuine cycle breaker, you probably also need outside support.
Looking beyond the family system can feel uncomfortable. Many families have unspoken messages about staying loyal to one another or not “airing dirty laundry.”
But you deserve healthy relationships with people who emotionally lift you up and make you feel good about yourself. If someone can’t provide you with those needs, it may be a sign to reevaluate the dynamic.
Setting Better Boundaries
Boundaries are usually inevitable when it comes to being a cycle breaker. At some point, you have to reevaluate the limits you have with family members. Similarly, you must see the role you play in maintaining generational distress.
Boundary work can be difficult. In most cases, families can and will resist this change. They might make sarcastic comments or gaslight you into thinking that you’re being dramatic. People react this way when they don’t want to examine their behavior.
They don’t want to examine their behavior or feel like they’re doing something wrong. They want to keep things exactly the way they are.
But your boundaries will set you free, and it’s your responsibility to set and implement them. Subsequently, they create an unavoidable shift within the system.
How Do You Cope With Intergenerational Trauma?
Trauma that’s been passed down through the generations can affect every part of your well-being. It often impacts your identity, self-worth, and current relationships. If you have children of your own, you risk passing unprocessed intergenerational trauma onto them.
This information isn’t meant to scare you. It’s absolutely possible to look after your mental health and heal from toxic patterns or dysfunctional systems.
Acknowledging Your Feelings
It’s okay to be upset or angry with your family of origin. In that same vein, it’s also okay to wish your life circumstances were different.
Identifying your feelings doesn’t mean holding grudges or betraying loved ones. It simply means giving yourself space to grieve, express, and explore how the past affected you. Once you can process those emotions, they have significantly less hold over you.
Sharing Your Past
Many people find that sharing their experiences helps them heal. Of course, who you disclose to can be even more important than what you disclose.
For this reason, trauma-informed therapy, such as EMDR, can be so profound. Trauma is inherently complex, and your body wants to protect you from more suffering. Unfortunately, distressing memories can get stuck inside of you- even if the specific event happened long ago.
Practicing More Self-Compassion
Unfortunately, people often blame themselves for their family circumstances. They assume they should have acted differently. Or, they acknowledge problematic patterns, but they dismiss the need for finding their own values, peace, and emotional well-being.
Self-compassion helps offset the deep shame people experience from trauma. It can also help you accept where you are in life- even if you make mistakes along the way.
Being Authentically You
Healing requires ongoing growth. You’re allowed to take space in this world, regardless of what your parents or anyone biologically related to you think!
With that, people won’t always like how you behave. They won’t always understand your process or validate your decisions. But being authentically you means honoring your needs and standing for what you value.
How Online Therapy in Seattle, WA Can Help You Break the Cycle and Boost Your Mental Health
If you’re ready to be a cycle breaker, congrats! Deciding to make this change is brave, but you deserve to feel free and heal from past trauma. Online therapy in Washington offers a safe, nonjudgmental place to address family problems and rediscover your identity. You can change family patterns, and you aren’t doomed to live a life that doesn’t feel authentic to you. If you are ready to break the cycle:
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- Start your healing process today!
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